his and everyone else's.

this year is HUGE. not only is it a new decade, it is the beginning, the fresh start, and the year that my life changes, drastically. in less than 5 months, i will graduate, barring any unforseen class failures. in 5 months, i will be getting ready to move, to california. in 5 months, i will never ever be a student again, i will be a professional. in 5 months, i become a working man, in a real world, over 3000 miles from what i call home. you think i’m excited? well you’re right, but i’m also scared. and scared is a word that i almost never use because i simply don’t get scared, but now, i’m scared. i find myself looking at the past 4 years of college as easily the best time of my life, and i know that’s a very cliche thing to say, but it’s true, it’s very true. i hope that people can have the experience that i have had at college, but if not, there is a lot of time left in life to have those best times. i fear that in my new life and environment, that i will be friendless, and alone, living in a new world very different from the coldness and wet new jersey that i have learned to love. what scares me the most is that i will be on my own, away from family and friends, and away from everything i have ever known. i live now, trying to drag my days out, using all of my time to soak in what i will soon be missing. i barely sleep, afraid i might miss something going on, or even a small joke that i know will be talked about for ages. it’s rather hard watching time slip away, especially when i’m so close to the end of my student life and my freedom. i know my life will be fun, my job will be fun, and i will have fun, i just can’t believe that i am here already, at this point, looking back and asking myself, where did 22 years go, let alone, how did it go so fast. at least i made it this far. my life is moving at a pace i can’t understand, but at least i can keep up with it.

peoples J