his and everyone else's.

so this morning, upon arrival to the glorious warner brothers studio lot, i had a little one on one time with THE showrunner.. after normal conversation, “what’s goin on in the world today?,” i was floored, not because of something bad, but because of something i didnt really want to happen, that happened.. ill get to that “happening” in a moment, but throughout the summer, i wondered if this might happen.. wondered if i would be confronted by this HUUGE conundrum/decision that would befall me in the morning hours of work today.. i was offered a job with the television show that i have been interning for.. WHAT THE FUCK?! every thought that i wondered about this summer, came crashing down on me.. would i take it, would i forego my senior year of school to jump into the real world, would i leave jersey/philly without any closure? i didnt know where to look, and i sure as hell didnt know what the fuck to do.. never in a million years could i have thought that i would actually be offered a job on the last day of my internship.. never in a million years would i have guessed that i would have to make a life changing decision in just a few short hours.. i immediately thought that this was almost as good of a problem to have as a baseball team having too many starting pitchers.. i sat there in the office, in a complete state of shock, wondering and consulting with family and friends about what i should do.. do i take the job? or do i go back to school? and more importantly, would this opportunity come again, when im graduated in less than a year from now? i sat and sat and sat, and listened to the advice from each and every writer on staff, about what decision to make.. now, mostly everyone gave me the support that i needed to go back to school, how could i miss my senior year and all of my friends and family on the east coast.. but others told me that it was a win-win situation regardless of the decision i make.. but i guess it wasnt much of a decision, as the answer really sat in front of me.. after the consulting and talking to THE showrunner, it became clear to me that i was well liked, and would have an opportunity pretty much whenever i wanted one, if that was next june or even in the next few years.. it destroyed me to sit there and decide about this altering event, and really pained me to have to make the decision that i did, but ultimately, i decided that i need to return to philadelphia, and need to return to school and the friends that i love and miss, and to graduate and then, after i graduate, then decide to come back out to the unparalleled land that is los angeles, and give it my go into the business that i have wanted to enter for years upon years. so i will be back.. my trip into hollywood is just a little delayed at this point, but i know that the opportunity is there and i know that me being me helped me out quite a bit this summer, and that in the next 9 months, i might just have a job, working in the same office, building 36, in burbank, california.. only time will tell at this point.. but i want you all to know that this is by far the hardest decision that i have ever had to make in my life.. no lie, no lie

peoples J